I sat down to write yesterday with no idea, no stirrings. I started two posts, but neither of them were right. I was so frustrated by this because I’m doing this challenge and I needed to write and post yesterday. I’d already missed one day because I was out of town. I couldn’t miss a day when I was home. I had no excuse.
When I signed up to do this challenge I thought, “I’m going to post amazing things every day and I’m going to take great pictures to share on my posts every day! Yay!”
But the thing is, I don’t always have amazing things to say. And when I don’t have amazing, good things to say and I try to talk anyway? Well, then I end up saying not-so-amazing things. My words come out all jumbled and wrong.
I’m learning to not say so much, to stop filling the air with unnecessary noise, to stop and take a breath and wait. When I don’t have much to say, I take that as a sign that I need to listen to what’s already going on around me and inside me.
What was going on around me yesterday was laughter. I bought my kids those little plastic beads that you use to create a design on a pegboard and then iron it and the beads fuse together. I found a huge container of those beads at IKEA. The kids went through hundreds of them yesterday. They are creating a tiny, plastic, square version of our family.
Yesterday I needed that time to be with my family after being away. To help and laugh and hug and read and iron (oh, my word, the ironing I did yesterday).
So I missed my post yesterday. I missed it because I didn’t have any words to say. I missed it because I was trying hard to stay in tune with my life. I missed it because, yesterday, the silence in my mind was needed to embrace and enjoy the beauty in my ordinary day.