Thankful Thursday – Vol 2
Two weeks into November and I’ll be honest. I’m not feeling very thankful lately. I’m feeling tired and overwhelmed, annoyed, stressed, on the verge of breakdown. I’m really good at not feeling inconvenient feelings. I can push down and over-look and put on a cheery face with the best of them. But after 3 months of single-ish parenting and making sure things get done and trying to not mope around, I really just want to mope around. I want to put on my ugliest sweatpants, throw my hair in a messy bun, take out my contacts, cuddle up on the couch and watch trashy TV with salty chips and spicy salsa, rich chocolate brownies and wine. Definitely wine.
It turns out that the training we thought would be done by Thanksgiving will actually be done by Christmas. Hopefully. So another month. The best month. The month I had so many plans for. I’ve been aware of this probability for a couple of weeks, but now it’s official. Flights have been cancelled and rearranged and pushed back. I can’t control any of it and I don’t like it. He is coming home for Thanksgiving, which I am very thankful for. But then we say good-bye again.
For the life of me, I cannot pull myself out of these negative thoughts on my own. So I’m turning to the only one who can help me get out of my own head.
All this is for your benefit, so that the grace that is reaching more and more people may cause thanksgiving to overflow to the glory of God. Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. 2 Corinthians 4:15-16
God’s going to give me strength and renew me every day. That’s all I really need.
The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song. Psalm 28:7
I’m thankful to have faith in God, who is always there for me, always watching over me. He’s got a plan I know nothing about and if I just keep trusting, I’ll be fine.
Praise the LORD. Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good; his love endures forever. Psalm 106:1
Here’s to a better week ahead, trusting God to give me strength.
These Ordinary Graces 
Ugh, I’m so sorry. You must be so disappointed. I totally understand the feeling of wanting to veg out on the couch all day…and my husband isn’t out of town! One thing I did when I missed my sister so terribly much (she and her fiance lived in Australia for about three months) was Facetime and Skype with them as often as possible, especially during momentous family occassions like birthday parties (we drew the line at funerals, though). Sending you a big hug!
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God bless you! It’s always hard having to go it alone with little ones. I have so much respect and admiration for those folks who must be single parents for whatever reason. They are heroic in my eyes. I have no idea how they manage it, but I think they are absolutely rock stars for it. And by the way, you’re a rock star too! I’ve never had to go it alone for longer than a day or two, so I have no real perspective except that I was SO glad to see my husband walk in the door again! Hang in there, sister! Thanksgiving will be here soon and then December will fly by in a blur and you’ll be with your beloved again!
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Oh, I’m so sorry that your favorite month is being altered by circumstances out of your control. Praying for peace for you!
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Oh, my heart aches for you. It’s so hard when all our best-laid plans are laid to waste. I’m such a planner… I would be going crazy in your shoes! I read something in my Bible study today that might be of blessing to you, though: Lamentations 3:20-23. I pray His blessings on you!
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Hey there, I found you via the NaBloPoMo blogroll.
I think at times like this what I sometimes most need is to give myself permission to mope. I find if I do that, about an hour into moping, something happens to me and I can’t continue to do it any longer. 🙂 I’ll get up and fill the dishwasher, or run out to give the chooks a treat.. It was allowing myself to do it, even for a short time, that stopped me wanting to do it for very long.
As part of NaBloPoMo I try to comment on as many participating blogs as I can, and I also add participating blogs to my feed reader.
So I’m just dropping by to let you know I’ve added your blog to my feedreader, I’m reading you loud and clear, I have a link up going at my place so my readers can find participating blogs which you are more than welcome to add your blog link to.
Looking forward to seeing your posts, and you’ll likely see me drop by again during November.
Happy NaBloPoMo to you!
Snoskred
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Oh Sarah, I’m reading your post and listening to It Is Well Kristene DiMarco Bethel Music. I have felt like you describe here, but not because I’m waiting on a military man to come home…or because I’m single parenting. I’ve experienced the exhaustion of parenting teen and young adult sons…waking from 3-4 a.m. to pray over them, and wondering if I did anything right as a mom. I thought I did all the right stuff to raise them in Jesus, but their faith is their faith to find and live and cultivate. I settled on this truth…The JOY of the LORD is my strength! And it is well ….with my soul…my eyes are on You!
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