I’m Awkward, I know
Let me just tell you that I’m socially awkward. I was reminded of this on two separate occasions this weekend already. When I’m around people I’m not normally around, my brain just goes blank and I end up staring at people for a little too long while I try to think of something to say. Then later, I can easily think of a million things to talk about. It’s really obnoxious.
I go into these situations ready to blow people’s minds with my awesomeness. Not really. Listen, I seriously have to give myself pep talks. But it doesn’t matter. I find myself gravitating to the least occupied corner of the room. Extrovert I am not. I look at all these women who can flit from one conversation to the other with amazing expertise and just imagine how awesome it would be. I’d love to be that person who always knows the right thing to say and when to say it. Now, give me a few minutes and I’ll get there, but in the moment? Nope. Nada. Zip.
But I’m the person to sit and have coffee with one on one. I could talk to one person for hours about all different kinds of things, really get in there deep and get to know someone. That’s what I’m comfortable with. That’s what I love. I’m not into small talk. I’m horrible at it. I often tell people more than they want to know or make jokes that aren’t really that funny.
So if you’re one of the many people who’s thought, “Wow. That girl is weird,” I agree with you. You’re totally right and I’m sorry if I’ve ever stared at you for too long or followed you around the room on accident. I’m working on it, but I can’t promise anything. Let’s grab some coffee or, better yet, wine and I’ll show you that I can be normal. Sort of.
Too funny. I’m the girl that can talk to anyone…but often say totally inappropriate things. Better to keep it to one random person than regret saying it to a room full of peeps! #weallhaveourhangups
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I struggle with small talk too. It’s a safe way to meet new people at social events. I’m usually already freaked out by the stares of my big printed dress. lol
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yes, me too. I hate the inane chatter in large groups – referred to as CPI (cocktail party information), but I can sit for hours at a coffee shop or wine bar with a friend and talk and talk and talk. Good to find your blog via NaBloPoMo.
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I always leave a conversation or room and then mull it over in my mind until I’ve convinced myself that I was the ONLY one who talked the whole time. What if I interrupted someone? Offended someone? Oh geez…no wonder I never get invited to anyone else’s house…You know.
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Yes! Haha!
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Loved it!! I don’t know that I am awkward, or shy, or what…but I am with you – one on one is definitely better! But, I do OK in a group: family, church, friends doing our crafts together…but if I don’t know a person, I would probably not be the one to go up and start a conversation; but if we were side by side – say at a food table or something – I may have some comment or something to say…thanks for sharing!
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Everyone is wired differently – you are ok! God wants you in intimate conversations! Be good with that!
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Oh gosh I hear you!!
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I don’t think you’re weird. I think you are in my head =) And I live with not one… but two… extroverts that just don’t get me. Glad I can find an online community of individuals who understand.
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I’m glad I’m not the only one. My husband always thinks I’m mad at him when I take some time alone. He doesn’t get it. 🙂
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I am also “akward” but get me alone and you won’t have a time to talk 🙂
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🙂
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Well said! I have such envy of people who have that social ease, always with a witty quip at the ready. Give me the long conversation in a coffee shop any ol’ day.
We’re neighbors on NaBloPoMo and I sure look forward to reading more of your posts. 🙂
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